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As each day grows dark
These feathers ache
To scrape the sky
To make my mark.

As time is sewn
I long to try
To stay behind
Not break apart.

To have these senses overrun
I must have stumbled on the way
In my aversion for the sun,
I've come to shiver in the spray.

As each day grows dark
These feathers ache
To scrape the sky
To make my mark.

As time is sewn
I long to try
To stay behind
Not break apart

To find myself within this light
Of every morning's present chill
Somehow I must have lost my sight
And come a subject of free will

As each day grows dark
These feathers ache
To scrape the sky
To make my mark.

As time is sewn
I long to try
To stay behind
Not break apart.

Where do you find peace?
Where do you hold your fears?
Where do you hide the beast
As your end draws near?

Where do you find love?
In books and priests?
In gods above? Or in your
Fear that it will cease?

To take your spit upon my face
I have to close my eyes and wait
Til' you have disappeared and there us no trace
I trust in "time will tell" all fate.

As each day grows dark
These feathers ache
To scrape the sky
To make my mark.

As time is sewn
I long to try
To stay behind
Not break apart

As each day grows dark
These feathers ache
To scrape the sky
To make my mark

As time is sewn
I long to try
To stay behind
Not break apart.

As each day grows dark
These feathers ache
To scrape the sky
To make my mark

As time is sewn
I long to try
To stay behind
Not break apart.
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Like a bolt from the blue, descending from the sky
My brain collapses in the dead of night
Too much for my psyche, another crack-up
If you're awake,please join me
All the things you see, the same as what I see
We listen to the sound of nervous breakdown
A death wish blends with a will to live
One of the things that freaks me out

I'm waiting for a sign, have to leave this place behind
Where no one knows my name
And later we'll come down, we both break down and cry
(And say) our last goodbye...

I break the chains, I'm out of line
I'm living on my nerves, last days of ninety-nine
Nightmare, conspiracy, depression and lunacy
I need to feel more love inside
Locked up, messed up, maybe there is no tomorrow
All this thinking does me no good
I'll miss you my love, but it's about time
That this world goes up in flames.

***

(Just a quick note: I am fine. I just hurt. I took a Soma and my Trileptal. They are working. I am just frustrated.)
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http://www.fesflowers.com/index.htm
You can't see it, but there is a very big grin on my face.
Now I see why Vicki's products are so effective; she uses these essences in everything.
I'm going to have fun browsing tonight.

I also need to find out how to properly charge massage oils with pieces of gemstones, like amber and amethyst and diamond. I think you drop the stone into the bottle of oil and shake it all up, perhaps. *is pondering*

This morning before leaving the house, I spritzed myself with the custom Harmony Elixir spray that Vicki had made me (Wild Rose, Orchid, Chamomile-Neroli), then layered with the Gaia Protection Lotion, which prominently displays Rose, Helichrysum, Chamomile, and Lavender. Then I spritzed with the spray again. On the train, a woman complimented me on my "incredible perfume." I told her it wasn't perfume, just a body spray and a lotion. I wrote down Vicki's website and told her which products I was using, and told her that the Harmony Spray was customized with those three oils. She said that whatever it was, it made her feel "unbelievably tranquil, at peace, happy, and meditative."
I hope Vicki is reading this. It's good to know that the things you make have such a positive effect!
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"The Power of Breath and Sound
A Dolphin totem can show you how to enter
the waters of life and then with breath and sound
call forth what you most need or desire."

In January of 2000, my first boyfriend and best friend of my teenage years died of a brain aneurysm. In my shock and grief, I took every gift he had given me over the past seven years and hid it away. One of those gifts had been a silver ring with a dolphin and a synthetic opal. It had been too big even for my biggest finger, so I had worn it on a necklace chain. Damar had said that dolphins were like spirit guides and guardians, bringers of joy, hope, love, and peace.
Several months after his death -- shortly after my 21st birthday -- I was in a thrift shop in my college town, looking at jewelry cases. I found a silver ring with a dolphin and a genuine amethyst stone. It didn't look like the one Damar had given me. I liked that about it. It also fit my biggest finger. I bought it and wore it for a while, but because the dolphin is connected to water magic and the power of emotions, it was too intense, and I was still learning how to use and control my blooming powers as a natural witch. I put it away in a tiny box of its own and left it alone.
Last night, while rummaging through my bedroom closet, I found the tiny box, hidden deeply inside an abandoned shoulder bag. The dolphin ring was lacking its shine, so I polished it until it gleamed and slipped it onto my right second finger. It glowed. I saw my reflection in the dolphin's miniscule mirrorshine eye. And I thought, hope. Hope, joy, love, peace.

When I got to work this morning, I searched online to see if I could find out if any website had the ring listed online. Amazon did, along with other gemstones besides amethyst (garnet, citrine, sapphire, blue topaz, peridot...). It gave me a sense of peace. I realized that wearing the ring meant hope, love, and healing not only for myself, but for others.

So, anyone who needs healing and hope, tell me. I'll send some out to you.

The dolphin was one of Damar's and my favorite animals, for many reasons. It is one of my three permanent totem animals.
It's nice to have the ring back. Thank you, Damar.

http://wolfs_moon.tripod.com/dolphintotem.html
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http://www.planetherbs.com/articles/ashwagandha.htm
http://www.planetherbs.com/articles/triphala.html
http://www.nutrasanus.com/turmeric.html
http://www.vitaminstuff.com/herbs-turmeric.html

It's not the world's oldest holistic healthcare system for nothing.

Bruising and inflammation from gods know what. Bad knee.
I am applying an ice cold water bottle to the knee, applying Reiki energy, and taking Ashwagandha, Turmeric, and Triphala with some cold milk that I bought on my lunch break. It is the combination that is making it hurt less. I'm also massaging with a lotion containing MSM and hyaluronic acid. Tonight I shall take those two in capsule form as well.

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