You have read my mind. I just don't say much about it because I don't want to seem desperate. Thank you for showing me that I am not alone in feeling this way. Though you and I have very different belief systems, I am drawn to your journal because you paint a picture of a life that is rich and full, despite being marred by pain and frustration. Good luck with finding people close to you to help banish the loneliness. If I didn't live states away, I would be one of them.