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"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wildflower:
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour."
--William Blake,
"Auguries of Innocence"

"We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit."
-- e. e. cummings



Writer. Reader. Vivid dreamer. Cat lover. Chocoholic. Unusually short. Neurologically weird. Physically impaired. Chronically pained. Polytheistic. Intuitive. Introverted. Shy. Passive. Peaceful. Anxious. Quiet. Hypersensitive. Verbose.

I'm Joanna. I write a lot. Sometimes too much. Case in point: This profile.

I am a creative writer. I wrote my first poem at age five and my first short story at ten. My first "novel" was written at 13.
I'm very shy and quiet until I'm comfortable with you.
I often am weak and uncertain but I've been called a steel magnolia. (I love magnolias.)

I have cerebral palsy (left side, spastic and ataxic). I also have temporal lobe epilepsy, fibromyalgia, asthma, social anxiety, generalized anxiety, social phobia, Raynaud's Syndrome, migraine disorder, joint pain, lordosis, ADD, and mild OCD. I'm recovering from anorexia.

I was born three months prematurely, which led to the cerebral palsy and a few other unfortunate conditions like seizures, asthma, chronic pain, learning problems, and "cognitive twitches." I was born very well-developed despite weighing under two pounds.

Pagan, Polytheist, Eclectic, Agnostic, Intuitive, Sensitive.Greco-eclectic, polyagnostic, rational, ecstatic, chthonic, pantheist, polytheist, pagan witch. Observer of humanistic paganism and spiritual humanism. Convinced that magic and physics go together like limes and coconuts.
In conclusion:
I am a pagan. I am a hard polytheist. I am also a polytheist polyagnostic pantheist eclectic witch and mage. My god figure is the entire universe and other universes beyond. I believe gods come from other universes and are realized, solidified, and born through the human mind. I am empathic. I've had premonitions. I believe in past lives. I am highly sensitive to spirits and quantum energy. I like to search for the reality behind the claims, and if I can't find any, I accept my own experiences as real for me. I accept everyone's opinions and beliefs as their own and I try not to be biased. You can believe whatever you want as long as you don't try and force it on me.

I try to keep my political views private and personal. I consider myself a Centrist or Moderate. I have both liberal views and conservative views. I don't belong to any political parties. I try to remain neutral about many things. I am pro-choice, pro-gun, pro-death penalty, pro-gay, pro-genderqueer. I would have an abortion if I wasn't ready for pregnancy, and in fact I am actually phobic about getting pregnant. I support animal testing in medicine and health, but not cosmetics. I prefer small government and I support state rights. I do not want the federal government forcing me to do anything. I support my country and my military. I try to be natural, but I don't want an organic-only world. I think meat is delicious, but I'd rather eat it without additives. I like wearing fur and leather if it keeps me warm, and I'd prefer if the whole animal was not wasted or killed for sport.
One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone from one end of the political spectrum makes negative, insulting, sweeping generalizations about people from another end of the political spectrum. Every rule has exceptions, and not everyone shares the same views.

I am studying holistic health care and skin care, and I am fascinated by natural remedies in general. I am also fascinated by psychology, philosophy, art, aesthetics, anthropology, biology, biochemistry, neurology, and parapsychology.

I have been married to Adam (shiefox) since May 22, 2005. He and I have been together since Thanksgiving, 1999.