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brightlotusmoon) wrote2006-08-20 03:10 pm
brightlotusmoon) wrote2006-08-20 03:10 pm
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I'll just say it
I have been hiding it, I admit. It's not scary, just... disconcerting. I am not doing well. CP and epilespsy symptoms waxing. Spastic tension, that hurts a lot because these muscles are working out without the mind, working so hard and not stopping, they cannot stop. I feel the burn, and yes it burns.
Aphasia and short term memory loss. I forget what things mean sometimes. And I just forget. However, the Trileptal is working amazingly well. It really is. I think I am just unbelievably stressed and perhaps mildly depressed. I do not know why. I am so tired, so tired, exhausted and fatigued, even the latte doesn't always help.
My fingertips and toes are numb and cold, they tingle and vibrate. Pinprick heat nerve pains along odd parts of my body; especially the neck, shoulders, lower back, backs of the thighs, hands, arms, knees, feet. I feel as though the inside of my body is vibrating at certain nerve points. Intense muscle fatigue. Migraines. Violent muscle tension in my shoulders and neck. Bizarre bloating when it's not my period. Sometimes I'm constipated, sometimes it's the opposite. TMJ. Intense anxiety attacks. I've had to find new concealers and foundations because my skin has gotten paler naturally, although I am not sure if that is a good thing.
Time to talk to the doctors, yes.
Aphasia and short term memory loss. I forget what things mean sometimes. And I just forget. However, the Trileptal is working amazingly well. It really is. I think I am just unbelievably stressed and perhaps mildly depressed. I do not know why. I am so tired, so tired, exhausted and fatigued, even the latte doesn't always help.
My fingertips and toes are numb and cold, they tingle and vibrate. Pinprick heat nerve pains along odd parts of my body; especially the neck, shoulders, lower back, backs of the thighs, hands, arms, knees, feet. I feel as though the inside of my body is vibrating at certain nerve points. Intense muscle fatigue. Migraines. Violent muscle tension in my shoulders and neck. Bizarre bloating when it's not my period. Sometimes I'm constipated, sometimes it's the opposite. TMJ. Intense anxiety attacks. I've had to find new concealers and foundations because my skin has gotten paler naturally, although I am not sure if that is a good thing.
Time to talk to the doctors, yes.