brightlotusmoon | But there is no reason to cry.

Holy earthbound fuck, people can be such horrific, beastly, monumentally stupid wastes of life. Why do certain humans continue to thrive while others despair and suffer in the face of complete cruelty and malevolence?

*grinds teeth*

I will go downstairs and eat my five-grain oatmeal with honey comb, maple syrup, cinnamon, and milk. I will try to feel better.

I hurt and I hurt and I hurt. I could barely get out of bed. My legs were on fire. I cried for a while, then took my Soma. Getting better.

My husband is in the air. His plane will land in Charlotte, NC, where he will wait for a couple of hours, and then another plane will take him to San Francisco. He will be home next week, we think. I miss him already. He played with the henna tattoo cream last night, drawing symbols on my left thigh. Roses in bloom, and Norse characters for briar and travel.

I need to be held. I just... fuck, I am in a bad mood today.

Outside the sun is shining intensely, and there is almost no snow left. I might go out, perhaps take the Metro (with my free disability card) to the Congressional Plaza shopping center, to Whole Foods, and drop a little money on some pure acai and goji juices. That always makes me feel better.

I predict that job hunting will be fruitless, but I can hope.

Good news is that my very best friend seems to be doing well on the supplements I've been sharing with her. Gods, I adore that woman. I'm ecstatic that she is back living near me. I need her. Truly, I need her and want her and desire her forever. And one day we will both be employed again and happy and financially set and everything will be okay. Pinky swear, B. Love you.

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I hope your day improves.

Which people are pissing you off, if I may ask?

The abusive relatives of friends, the abusive friends of friends, the abusive strangers who laugh at the pain of other strangers.

Hmm. Sounds about right to me. Carry on.

I cried for a while, then took my Soma.

No, no, no! This is not what time efficiency is about. Take your Soma first, THEN cry.

Ugh. That reminds me. There's this woman who fills her prescriptions with us. First she claimed her Soma was stolen, and she filed a police report. We told her she had to get a doctor's approval to get another refill because it was too soon. She called back two days later saying she overdosed on her Soma, went to the hospital, and they confiscated it. Now, her story may very well be true, but the first thought that popped to mind was, "It's people like her who make it so difficult for people like Foxy [that is my nickname for you!] and my grandfather to get the medications they rightfully need."

Out of curiosity, and I hope you don't mind me asking, what medications do you take, and what were they prescribed for? I'm trying to become more acquainted with various medications. :)

Take your Soma first, THEN cry.
LOL, I've done that too! It actually is more efficient, because I'm all relaxed and stuff when I do cry.

Ooh, I like being called Foxy!

That woman sounds like an abuser to me. It's easy to get hooked on analgesic muscle relaxants when you don't actually need them. (Funny enough for me, they work better when I'm in pain, and work less when I'm not in pain; so I have no logical reason to abuse them.)

I take a birth control pill (Ogestrel, the highest dosage possible), and generic Trileptal -- oxcarbazepine.
The Trileptal is for epilepsy and also for the off-label treatment of fibromyalgia (the doctor doubled the dosage when we discovered that it helped some of my pain).
The reason I take such a high dose of oral contraceptive is because Trileptal is enzyme-inducing, and will cause the liver to process birth control pills at a faster rate, which will slightly lessen the contraceptive effects.
But I've been taking the combination since 2006 and haven't gotten pregnant, so it does work. I know that's a big concern for epileptics who are prescribed enzyme-inducing drugs (very few epilepsy drugs are not enzyme inducing). Generally, all they'd need is a higher dose of birth control. It just means that instead of being a super strong dose, it's brought down to a medium dose that still is effective.
(This only needs to happen with the pill, mind you, not IUDs or Nuvaring or implants, which obviously are not processed in the liver.)

Oh, WOW! I didn't know about epilepsy medications producing enzymes. I'm going to go research that. For some reason, enzymes really get me going. ;) I love hearing about contraindications. They're kind'f my thang [sic]. Saying [sic] really reduces the impact of "thang," doesn't it?

Wait, is producing the same sort of thing as inducing in medicine?? Or did you mean inducing all along?

Heh, you said [sic]! I love it.

I'm considering the enzymes as a product of the natural reaction of the metabolic breakdown of medication. So, really, it's a reaction, but I consider a reaction a "product," even though both could technically be correct. "Induce" is just as correct, but not as specific. I would say that taking the medication is what induces the medication and the body to produce a specific effect. Does that make sense? Haha.

Ahhh, gotcha. Makes perfect sense to me! Also, I learned something!

I've thought about it some more, and I think I had the reasons slightly off. I think "induce" is probably an incorrect word altogether just because of this.

When something can't be broken down, the body has to produce more and more enzymes. Accepted fact, yes? If my logic is right, once a medication is in the GI tract, the body attempts to break it down to release it into the blood stream. The chemicals are overwhelming to the body, so the body begins to create metabolic proteins in the digestive system in order for the medication to make it to the blood so the blood can "carry it" to the right place in the brain and other organs. (Which comes first, and why, and in which instances, I wonder?)

So taking the medication induces the entire process, beginning with the absorption of the medication from the GI tract to the blood stream, which THEN induces the production of enzymes!

Weeeee! I love learning.

Hmmm. This is FUN! Keep thinking!

I still say you are one of the strongest, most amazing people in the world. You'll be okay. I know you will.

*hugs* I hope things are looking up for you.

sigh... I know...It seems such a tricky world... challenges everywhere... You are blessed with so much love! What matters...

But there is no reason to cry.

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