Feeling Picturesque

[brightlotusmoon]

This is the second photo I've emailed to myself from the Pixi Plus smartphone. I like it mostly because it hides the redness on my face. Also my hair looks good. Also, I don't look thirty-two. I really just posted it to showcase the glasses, which I'd bought months ago but kept as backup. They're too pretty to use as backup. They're children's frames, named Pony in the color Cafe. I love them.
I'd uploaded a different but similar picture on Facebook, and while it showed the glasses well, it also showed how red and scarred my face was. Intellectually and rationally, I understood that I looked fine and youthful and pretty, but all I could see in the photo was ruddiness and fading blemishes. Concealer is one of my best friends in cosmetics. Ah, the joy of emotional body image issues. Even my therapist says I look fine.

Comments

[unico-love.livejournal.com]

I completely relate to the skin issues. I used to refer to my skin as "rotting" which made a psychologist think I was psychotic. My long-term psychologist said that I have the best skin she's ever seen, but I don't feel that way. I love foundation.

And I like your glasses:-) I'm pretty small, too, but I just wear adult glasses. Maybe my head is wider.

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

It's not loading for me. Weird. But still, yay glasses! And I hate when I don't wear make-up. In my 19-week pic yesterday, I wished SO much I had put it on. I just feel so plain and ugly without it, no matter what anyone says (including my therapist, too, who has seen me with and without make-up). Ahh, body image issues... *hugs*

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

It's also on Facebook, if you can see it! It's the second photo I uploaded today to Facebook.
Thanks for understanding. It's nice when people insist that you look great, but... you know!

[lovefromgirl.livejournal.com]

Hey, you can call yours "blemishes" with a straight face. Mine aren't half so dignified. They are full-blown ZITS. :D

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Is there such a thing as a dignified blemish? Would it speak in a Mid-Atlantic accident, like Frasier or boarding school students or Audrey Hepburn?

[lovefromgirl.livejournal.com]

For the win! :)

Did your skin change when you hit 25? Mine has. It's like being 13 again. Ugh. I don't even know where to start with it.

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

My skin didn't change until I hit 30. It actually got better. But I am still completely convinced I have blemishes, scars, clogged pores everywhere, etc.

[evieeros.livejournal.com]

OMG I bet you still get carded! I know from experience it won't help your self perception too much but you DO look young and LOVELY.

I have dermotillomania or skin picking as one of my anxiety tics. I freak out over every clogged pore or zit and scratch them to make them "smooth" even though of COURSE this has the exact opposite effect!!! I learned not to do it to my face because I bleed a lot and it was embarrassing but I still do it to my shoulders and back. They've gotten a lot better with the raw scabby bits but are still COVERED in scars from it. :( Hubby keeps trying to convince me I could wear a sleeveless top--right.

Anyway, *commiserates* I wanted you to know that I RARELY comment but I do read every one of your posts! You're not alone!

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[soliloquy.livejournal.com]

You're very pretty! I wish I had more to say, but that's about it. :-D