Good. Possibly better. Weird.

So, I just got some news that makes me incredibly happy and incredibly sad and incredibly angry. It really makes me question my faith in humanity and especially human authority with too much power. But it also makes my faith in people -- in love -- renewed. I don't think I have felt this close to certain people in a long time. I'm not really sure what else to say about that.

However, you know what this means, right? This means I can scream and jump up and down and shriek madly, "I'M GETTING MARRIED! I'M GETTING MARRIED! EVERYONE'S GONNA BE THERE!"

Okay, sorry, that had to come out. If I was able to turn cartwheels, I would.

To her: I love you more than any words I could ever say. I'm glad I could hear you laugh, a little, over the phone earlier. You need laughter. You need light. You are light, filled with light, and may the world turn dark if that light goes out. I hope my fiance made you smile. He does that a lot.
To him: Everything is all right. Whatever happens... however it happens... these things happen for a reason. You are here for a reason. You are and always will be one of the most brilliant, amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of calling friend and brother.

To the love of my life, my soul: You keep the universe turning for me. You give me the stars in your sparkling eyes. In your arms, I am safe and complete. I promise to make it the same for you, so long as we both shall live.

I just realized something...

After counting up all the people, friends-wise, who will be there at the wedding, it looks as though my past and present will come full circle. As it should.
I will be seeing Jinx -- Jen -- again after six years. I don't think we parted with everything said, and there was that gap of years where the love I'd felt and the cherished treasured feelings seemed to be in a limbo. And then, we found each other again and it was like a key fitting into a lock. Who would have ever thought that out of so many people, she and I would click so well?
And Beca, of course, my dearest heart sister, who fills my soul every day with light and joy with just a thought and a word; I don't even know how to say what I need to say. I'd never made a friend so quickly, so closely, so completely, falling headfirst, diving even, without taking a breath, without hesitating, only thinking this is what I want, this is it, this is what I will be, and having it work out so wonderfully.
The man I will marry links the past and the present, you know, in funny ways... in beautiful ways.

Everyone who will be there has a story, has a light, has a reason.

I think that this day in May, 05.22.2005, this wedding, will be filled with the brightest shining stars the universe has ever seen.

The time I think most clearly, the time I slip away

So, Andrew just called to confirm his invitation to our wedding. And he wanted to know if he could play New Model Army's "The Green And The Gray."
Hells YEAH.
Perhaps he and Jason can get together and conspire. We want Jason to sing Tom Petty's "Wildflowers" too.

Speaking of Jason, he will be playing tomorrow night (Monday) at the Washington DC Arts Center (2438 18th St Nw Washington, DC 20009), from 10-11. (It's to benefit the tsunami victims.) So, anyone local who wants to hear an awesome acoustic guitar player with a genuinely amazing voice, do come. Cover is ten bucks. He's worth it. Tell your friends!
http://www.garageband.com/artist/jason_greenwalt