Almost... something, I don't know

On Saturday, Charlotte, Billy and I stayed in. We realized that Pam would be fine. Billy and I went to Dairy Queen and got the ice cream cake. Later that night, Lena and Lex came back. It pleased me and made me smile to see them being cuddly and all couple-like because it reminded me that my husband would be home soon. Lena was wearing a shiny powder-blue bodice over jeans that looked fantastic on her. When I asked Lex if I could have his girlfriend, he said that no, I couldn't have her, although I could borrow her for a day. Good enough.
We watched Comedy Central. Ventroliquist with a vast array of dummies, one of which looked as though it had been created on acid: Peanut. But very very funny.
It was well after midnight when I decided I needed sleep. I woke up exhausted, like I had not gotten any sleep at all. Charlotte and I sat curled under a blanket watching TV, and then around twelve-thirty, Billy prepared to drive me home while Charlotte went with her grandmother to the hospital to pick up her mother. I am now home. I am still so tired I can barely think straight. I will go back upstairs and get in bed again. I've been watching TV -- music videos; hoping to instill some energy. I think I just need sleep. Or more food. Or something.
I'm just so tired.
I'm too tired to care about anything right now.

More later.

apropos of nothing

I am also too tired to eat.
Earlier, Billy gave me some leftover chicken that he'd made yesterday: Breaded buttered cutlet with melted mozzarella and mushrooms, sides of rice and green beans, all glazed with butter. It had been extraordinary. I'd drank red wine and eaten my fill.
Today, I ate half the cutlet and threw the rest out.
When I came home, I ate nothing but a granola bar.
I can barely feel my stomach being empty.
I think I am too exhausted to be hungry.
I think that after my nap, I'll feel better. I'll feel hungry.
It's a migraine -- I just realized that. It is migraine and fatigue and muscle aches and probably a night of tossing and turning and not enough REM. Hell, maybe I seized in my sleep too, who knows. I am too tired to care.
My lower right leg is doing that weird tingly numb "draining" thing, because sometimes it will swell and become puffy like too much fluid under the skin. Someone mentioned edema. I have no idea. Yes, yes, see a doctor.
My eyes feel like sandpaper. I need to sleep and it is so hard.
I should sleep.
Shit.