*raises eyebrows*

( The real zodiac )

Also, according to this, I am actually a Pisces. That honestly makes a hell of a lot of sense.
And Adam is a Gemini. Hmmm. This also makes a lot of sense.

What amuses me is that I have characteristics of both Aries and Pisces, while my husband has those of both Cancer and Gemini.
There may be something to this.

flinch

My ED therapist left me a message a few days ago; I keep forgetting to call her back. I should, I really really should, because it has become horribly skewed and suddenly confidence is dropping.
I don't think I am "fat" not at all, not by any means. But... I have lost muscle tone and I have such an appetite, and I feel as though I don't exercise enough, and everyone knows what that can lead to. I do not want to fall below a hundred pounds again. I just want to be firm and toned again. I have been waiting for those instances in which I am not fatigued, not sore, so I can concentrate on squats, lunges, crunches, twists, push-ups, leg lifts, isometrics. A little at a time. Here and there. I don't mind waiting. It could be weeks. But I just want to be able to look in the mirror naked and see muscle showing through again. Things feel much too loose. I don't have time for a Pilates class. That is what I want most, Pilates. I am researching ways to do it at home, in the living room or on the bed. I don't feel right anymore. My body feels strange. Perhaps because this is the first time in my entire life that I have not been so skinny. It always feels strange and elusive, doesn't it?