alien inside

Last night was one of those nights. I wanted to Go Away. I wanted the world to Go Away. Fibro flare, migraine, PMS flare, vicious and unrelenting; boiling down to frustration and pain and being irritable and snappy and with no appetite at all. Adam gave me a cup of strong hops tea. I drank it and my pain levels dropped and I got sleepy. A bit later, I drank two teaspoons of blue lotus extract and had the alien sensation of every muscle in my body relaxing and ceasing to spasm. Mild euphoria, tranquility, serenity. Peace. I went to bed early. Alien feeling continued. So this is what normal people feel like, I kept wondering. No pain, no tension? Nice.
I had strange strange dreams, which I shall post about later.
Right now, I still feel relatively "normal" (whatever that means). My leg muscles are starting to shudder, trying to get back into the tense, clenched CP mode. I took a tablet of L-Tyrosine after waking up, so my energy levels are greatly increased and staying steady. I haven't taken Tyrosine in a long time and it's time I started back up. I still feel serene and relaxed.

L-Tyrosine and CoQ10

Holy shit.
I have energy.
Energy, people.
I HAVE ENERGY.

Yeah...

*silly grin*

So, tyrosine in the morning right after getting up, and CoQ10 in the afternoon right after lunch. Yep. Energy. It's good.

I can concentrate on stuff other than pain, like life. My memory is better. My mind is cleared up. I have better focus. The ADD daydream distractions are dull and distant. I am much less inclined to want to curl up and grind my teeth.

So, yeah. Tyrosine and Coenzyme Q-10. Good stuff.