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Staggering
Jan. 6th, 2009 08:57 pmToday was one of those Very Bad Days.
The cerebral palsy took the lead, causing violent spasms and tension in my legs. My quadriceps were extraordinarily tense; I couldn't walk without pain. I could barely go up and down stairs. Walking for more than ten minutes straight left me in tears. Standing for more than five minutes left me trembling.
I nearly broke down getting on the train home. A woman saw me and offered me her seat. The woman next to her also stood up, so the first woman and I sat together. She asked if I was okay, if this was common or sudden; she offered to get me to a hospital if I needed. I explained that it was my legs and that it was common. We got to talking, and she said that she had a friend with fibromyalgia and a friend with cerebral palsy, but she never knew anyone with both, and she had deep sympathy. She asked me if talking helped, and was happy when I said it did. She got off several stops before me. I rode all the way to Shady Grove smiling through my drying tears.
Adam massaged and stretched my legs a little while ago. I screamed, sobbed, and howled like a torture victim, but it worked. I can move... better. Although my personal habits haven't helped. I need to exercise and lose weight, but we knew that.
I did not take a Soma. The pain wasn't widespread, and the drug would have only been a temporary solution. I am planning on throwing that at the next online stranger who tells me I'll become addicted. I took a double dose of passion flower and a single dose of valerian. Those herbs have more long-lasting muscle relaxing power.
Adam's massage work has started taking effect, alongside the herbs. A hot shower will be next, followed by more stretching and meditation.
The cerebral palsy took the lead, causing violent spasms and tension in my legs. My quadriceps were extraordinarily tense; I couldn't walk without pain. I could barely go up and down stairs. Walking for more than ten minutes straight left me in tears. Standing for more than five minutes left me trembling.
I nearly broke down getting on the train home. A woman saw me and offered me her seat. The woman next to her also stood up, so the first woman and I sat together. She asked if I was okay, if this was common or sudden; she offered to get me to a hospital if I needed. I explained that it was my legs and that it was common. We got to talking, and she said that she had a friend with fibromyalgia and a friend with cerebral palsy, but she never knew anyone with both, and she had deep sympathy. She asked me if talking helped, and was happy when I said it did. She got off several stops before me. I rode all the way to Shady Grove smiling through my drying tears.
Adam massaged and stretched my legs a little while ago. I screamed, sobbed, and howled like a torture victim, but it worked. I can move... better. Although my personal habits haven't helped. I need to exercise and lose weight, but we knew that.
I did not take a Soma. The pain wasn't widespread, and the drug would have only been a temporary solution. I am planning on throwing that at the next online stranger who tells me I'll become addicted. I took a double dose of passion flower and a single dose of valerian. Those herbs have more long-lasting muscle relaxing power.
Adam's massage work has started taking effect, alongside the herbs. A hot shower will be next, followed by more stretching and meditation.
