I don't know, I can't even...

I feel like I am on the edge of a precipice, waiting. I have no idea what I am waiting for. I am anxious, nervous, excited, afraid, hopeful, worried, everything all rolled up. I have no idea. Something will happen. When? I ask. Oh, gods and infinite, when will it happen? What is it? Where will it come from? Should I be afraid? Should I be happy?
Being in limbo is not peaceful. It is maddening. I stare into the abyss and the abyss overcomes me. Things are happening slowly. What are they? Where will they come from? All I have is hope and worry and fear and bravery. Those are good enough.
I knew there was a reason I chose to wear my pendant made of selenite, kyanite, and tourmaline wrapped in copper on a gold chain. I need to center myself. When things start happening, I need a firm ground to stand on. Everything will be all right. How? When? Why? What? Oh, my brain. It is hard to live so intently in the Now, when the Future is looming in the distance all foggy and strange. I just have to keep moving.
Tomorrow, I leave my house and cats in capable hands. Then road trip. Then home with parents. I don't know what will happen. That is all right. Really, it will be all right.
Everything will be all right.
Everything is all right.