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When my voice stops...
Feb. 1st, 2013 09:59 pmAh, yes. Welcome to cerebral palsy with spasticity and hypertonia, combined with full blown fibromyalgia flaring.
I am typing very very slowly with two fingers, sometimes more, as my hands unfreeze and unclench and attempt to loosen with the help of Soma and stretching. Everything is so so painful.
Earlier, Adam came back from errands with four pounds of crab claws for dinner. After over one hour of cracking and manipulating the legs to get my own two pounds meat, I felt my body begin to clench, spasm, tighten, and lock so quickly that I began having difficulties even with speech. My hands clenched, fingers clawed; my elbows and knees locked at a bent angle. Raynaud's Disease hit my fingers and toes. My tongue and throat muscles began to spasm, which, while fairly normal to me, might probably alarm people unused to it. I had to repeat words, stutter wildly, and pause frequently to get simple words out. I cried mainly because of the pain and frustration, and conveyed to Adam that he should probably wash dishes. He told me to sit and rest and that he would take care of everything; after all, he was around for my advantage. I staggered my way upstairs to take the Soma pill, do some healing stretches, and engage in deep breathing. My bent elbows gave me some slight advantage in slowly changing my shirt. I maneuvered back downstairs and managed to scoop the cat litter, again slowly.
I am now on the couch feeling the effects of the Soma spread, feeling individual muscles begin to loosen and unclench and relax, like a bodywide sigh and breath, like a deep physical meditative release. The sciatic nerve is still shocking me a little, but it is getting a little better. I don't know where I would be without the Soma right now.
I could talk more about what happens to me when the severe hypertonia floods me, but my hands are getting tired. If anyone has questions, I would be happy to answer them.
I am typing very very slowly with two fingers, sometimes more, as my hands unfreeze and unclench and attempt to loosen with the help of Soma and stretching. Everything is so so painful.
Earlier, Adam came back from errands with four pounds of crab claws for dinner. After over one hour of cracking and manipulating the legs to get my own two pounds meat, I felt my body begin to clench, spasm, tighten, and lock so quickly that I began having difficulties even with speech. My hands clenched, fingers clawed; my elbows and knees locked at a bent angle. Raynaud's Disease hit my fingers and toes. My tongue and throat muscles began to spasm, which, while fairly normal to me, might probably alarm people unused to it. I had to repeat words, stutter wildly, and pause frequently to get simple words out. I cried mainly because of the pain and frustration, and conveyed to Adam that he should probably wash dishes. He told me to sit and rest and that he would take care of everything; after all, he was around for my advantage. I staggered my way upstairs to take the Soma pill, do some healing stretches, and engage in deep breathing. My bent elbows gave me some slight advantage in slowly changing my shirt. I maneuvered back downstairs and managed to scoop the cat litter, again slowly.
I am now on the couch feeling the effects of the Soma spread, feeling individual muscles begin to loosen and unclench and relax, like a bodywide sigh and breath, like a deep physical meditative release. The sciatic nerve is still shocking me a little, but it is getting a little better. I don't know where I would be without the Soma right now.
I could talk more about what happens to me when the severe hypertonia floods me, but my hands are getting tired. If anyone has questions, I would be happy to answer them.
