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Persephone, swimming in white gold
Jul. 29th, 2014 02:58 pmSometimes I forget that this is the place I can always come to when I need to vent.
There has been pain, pain, pain, fatigue, pain, and tests. I had a brain MRI because the neurologist wanted to have an updated picture of my brain. She wants to make sure that the issues I've been having are not necessarily seizures but severe hypertonic spasms. Next month, I will have a video imaging EEG for eight hours to see how often I have seizures.
None of this worries or bothers me. I almost don't care anymore.
I hurt. I'm exhausted. Whatever. This is life. Like... my mom keeps wondering what I can do to "make it better" and at this point I just spin the wheel of answers. Nothing makes chronic pain stuff "better" - it just lessens the symptoms.
So, anyway.
"In the best known version of the Greek myth, Persephone is dragged down into the underworld by Hades, whose title is 'Pluto.' But in earlier, pre-patriarchal tales, she descends there under her own power, actively seeking to graduate from her virginal naïveté by exploring the intriguing land of shadows. 'Pluto' is derived from the Greek word plutus, meaning 'wealth.' Psychologist James Hillman says this refers to the psyche-building riches available in Pluto's domain. Hades, he says, is the 'giver of nourishment to the soul.'" - Rob Brezsny
"I am channeling my matron goddess Persephone today. In the original myth, she chose to descend into the world of Hades in order to gain knowledge of the shadows. Hades had a power to nourish the soul, which patriarchal translations misinterpreted. There was no abduction. There was no assault. I always sensed something beyond the stories.
In my own Joanna way, I see Persephone as brightness and Hades as darkness. The lotus and the moon. Mage of light and mage of dark.
The story of Persephone and Hades is probably one of the most misunderstood, misrepresented, and mistaken relationships in mythology. I have never been so relieved to see my suspicions confirmed."
I am still obsessed over the original myth of Persephone and Hades - how she so willingly and deliberately descended into the shadows, how Hades in fact was nourishment for souls. I grew up knowing that Persephone was one of my goddesses but I didn't like the patriarchal story. How wonderful and relieving to know that there never was a kidnapping. The more I meditate on my connection with their relationship, the more I feel powerful, relieved, relaxed, and free. I may one day figure out enough lucid dreaming to really communicate with the part of the gods that resides in my Higher Brain and Subconscious mix. You know, the Quantum Psychic Consciousness.
Oh. I'm professoring again. Cough.
In conclusion, polytheism is awesome and if you can connect to the deities that call you, it can be enlightening.
So, anyway, all my medicines and treatments have been wonderful and ideal. Yay.
There has been pain, pain, pain, fatigue, pain, and tests. I had a brain MRI because the neurologist wanted to have an updated picture of my brain. She wants to make sure that the issues I've been having are not necessarily seizures but severe hypertonic spasms. Next month, I will have a video imaging EEG for eight hours to see how often I have seizures.
None of this worries or bothers me. I almost don't care anymore.
I hurt. I'm exhausted. Whatever. This is life. Like... my mom keeps wondering what I can do to "make it better" and at this point I just spin the wheel of answers. Nothing makes chronic pain stuff "better" - it just lessens the symptoms.
So, anyway.
"In the best known version of the Greek myth, Persephone is dragged down into the underworld by Hades, whose title is 'Pluto.' But in earlier, pre-patriarchal tales, she descends there under her own power, actively seeking to graduate from her virginal naïveté by exploring the intriguing land of shadows. 'Pluto' is derived from the Greek word plutus, meaning 'wealth.' Psychologist James Hillman says this refers to the psyche-building riches available in Pluto's domain. Hades, he says, is the 'giver of nourishment to the soul.'" - Rob Brezsny
"I am channeling my matron goddess Persephone today. In the original myth, she chose to descend into the world of Hades in order to gain knowledge of the shadows. Hades had a power to nourish the soul, which patriarchal translations misinterpreted. There was no abduction. There was no assault. I always sensed something beyond the stories.
In my own Joanna way, I see Persephone as brightness and Hades as darkness. The lotus and the moon. Mage of light and mage of dark.
The story of Persephone and Hades is probably one of the most misunderstood, misrepresented, and mistaken relationships in mythology. I have never been so relieved to see my suspicions confirmed."
I am still obsessed over the original myth of Persephone and Hades - how she so willingly and deliberately descended into the shadows, how Hades in fact was nourishment for souls. I grew up knowing that Persephone was one of my goddesses but I didn't like the patriarchal story. How wonderful and relieving to know that there never was a kidnapping. The more I meditate on my connection with their relationship, the more I feel powerful, relieved, relaxed, and free. I may one day figure out enough lucid dreaming to really communicate with the part of the gods that resides in my Higher Brain and Subconscious mix. You know, the Quantum Psychic Consciousness.
Oh. I'm professoring again. Cough.
In conclusion, polytheism is awesome and if you can connect to the deities that call you, it can be enlightening.
So, anyway, all my medicines and treatments have been wonderful and ideal. Yay.
