and therein lies the problem/solution
Apr. 11th, 2006 04:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightlotusmoonI couldn't take it anymore.
I asked my neurologist to take me off the 150 mgs of Trileptal in the morning and just have me on the 300 at night.
It feels like the fatigue is killing me. I can barely keep my eyes open all day. I'm too foggy to think.
It took a few weeks for the side effect to happen, but that is what I need to do. I knew something was wrong, I knew this was it, that extra morning dose.
My doctor agreed immediately once he understood. I have to see him next month for a follow-up, too, he says.
I'm lucky, he says, lucky it is just fatigue and dizziness that the drug hurts me with.
So I will now only take one pill a day, and it will be better. I was never this fatigued with the 300 mg alone, never.
Choices. Here are my choices: Continue to endure this constant monstrous, vicious, awful, sickening, aching, painful, staggering daily exhaustion with a double dose; or take the chance that I might have one or two triggered seizures every few weeks or months with a single dose...
I will take the second choice.
I can fight off triggered seizures; I know how to stop them in their tracks.
I'll use meditation and yoga and herbs and mental exercises to supplement the drug, for gods' sakes.
Just... no more. No more. I'm so fucking tired...
I'm so tired I'm crying...
I love my doctor for helping me.
I asked my neurologist to take me off the 150 mgs of Trileptal in the morning and just have me on the 300 at night.
It feels like the fatigue is killing me. I can barely keep my eyes open all day. I'm too foggy to think.
It took a few weeks for the side effect to happen, but that is what I need to do. I knew something was wrong, I knew this was it, that extra morning dose.
My doctor agreed immediately once he understood. I have to see him next month for a follow-up, too, he says.
I'm lucky, he says, lucky it is just fatigue and dizziness that the drug hurts me with.
So I will now only take one pill a day, and it will be better. I was never this fatigued with the 300 mg alone, never.
Choices. Here are my choices: Continue to endure this constant monstrous, vicious, awful, sickening, aching, painful, staggering daily exhaustion with a double dose; or take the chance that I might have one or two triggered seizures every few weeks or months with a single dose...
I will take the second choice.
I can fight off triggered seizures; I know how to stop them in their tracks.
I'll use meditation and yoga and herbs and mental exercises to supplement the drug, for gods' sakes.
Just... no more. No more. I'm so fucking tired...
I'm so tired I'm crying...
I love my doctor for helping me.
