Still not giving up, just laying down

[brightlotusmoon]

I keep fighting off simple partial seizures. Sensory, psychic, autonomic, motor, the whole package. This is not as alarming as it could be, since it's the week before my menses. However, it is exhausting. I have work to do and thoughts to think and life to live and all those things.
It makes the dreamy, flitting ADD distractions that much more difficult to control. I am a daydreamer by nature even without ADD. Usually my brain is better, but I am tired.
I think I am coming down with a cold, and the fibro is flaring slightly, possible anticipatory predator stalking my musculoskeletal and central nervous systems. Speak of the devil; the cerebral palsy has caused the muscles and tendons in my left leg to clench pull too tight.
Keeping in tune with the CP, the sensory integration disorder has been messing more than usual with my senses of touch, taste, smell, and hearing. That pisses me off. I feel bitchy and whiny about everything.
The asthma has been acting up slightly, too. I haven't needed the rescue inhaler much in general, so I've been doing breathing exercises and taking cayenne extract and cordyceps and cat's claw and drinking peppermint tea and doing everything I can to not use the inhaler unless I actually need it. I keep an inhaler in my purse, one next to my bed, and one in the den.
Amazingly enough, the sciatica and lordosis have been quiet. Cannot say that for the migraines.

Yes, I'm falling apart. No, I'm not going to stand up and smile brightly and be cheerful. I want to collapse and scream and sob and howl and curse. I will do that for a while and I will vent, and then I will stand up and smile and be cheerful.

I'm tired. I'm just... TIRED. I don't know what not being tired is like anymore, not really, not completely.

Oh, hey... purring cats. *tired, happy smile*

Comments

[samson-of-5.livejournal.com]

I feel some of your pain...had a cold spell here in Montana, and thanks to my car dying and my place being almost as drafty as an outhouse, I now have a dandy cold which I felt tempted to call in sick to work for. I aim to kill it tonight with some Tylenol and vaporub. Hope you feel better soon! -HUGS-

[suzanna-o.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things are so bad for you right now.