Being Alice: Slowly Electric

[brightlotusmoon]

I don't know where it started. Couch or bathroom. I felt suddenly unreal. The room began to move away from me. The photos on the wall began to shift and change colors. The trees out the window moved in slow motion. The fan and the television slowed. The world slowed. Lightning in my head increased. There was slight pressure, not physical but psychic. I don't remember getting up or walking. I remember staring at the walls in the hallway, because Adam painted a mural on those walls when we first got the house. I remember watching Luna stare at me from the bathroom doorway. She meowed at me. She jumped up onto the stair ledge and sat there, and meowed, and when I stroked her, she nipped my hand and licked me. I don't remember anything else. I am back on the couch. My brain feels electric. Luna is with me. She is meeping now, instead of meowing. See, she only meows when she needs to get a human's attention. She keeps walking across my lap, rubbing her face against mine.

It will end in a moment and I will be fine.

My cats know. They always know. Thank you, my cats.

(For the record.)

Comments

Part I

[tokio.livejournal.com]

That is such a sweet story. Awww. I am so incredibly sorry about Tuesday.

Actually, I have a very similar story. My grandparents are rather poor, living on a fixed income, and they are both in terrible health, so they tend to be pretty late on spaying cats. I know that sounds terrible, but all of their cats are well-fed, well-loved, and very well taken care of.

Miku, the daughter of Isis, gave birth to two kittens. We named them Bella and Lola.

Here's Miku with Lola. They looked so much alike:



Do you see the beautiful orange on her? There's an orange-brown stripe right in the middle of her body. After the orange stripe, there's an expanse of grey-brown. An orange-brown spot encircles this area right in the middle of all the brown. She had it on both sides. Her ears were the same grey-brown color. She had a big bushy tail that started with a light brown and faded into a dark grey tip.

And here's Bella:



Miku nursed Bella and Lola for months. They were all so close. Now, you probably know that cats don't get pregnant while they're nursing, but once they stop nursing, they will go into heat. We were planning on getting her spayed as soon as she stopped, but we didn't know that she'd stopped producing milk because they were still nursing on her. They were five or six months old at this point.

One night, Grandpa let Miku out at about 3AM. She had gone into heat literally that day due to the lack of milk, but we'd had absolutely no idea. She doesn't act any different when she's in heat. The next day, I went out and I bought every cat in the house a beautiful collar that matched their coats (Bella got a lovely baby blue collar with white crystals, Lola got a dark red one with white crystals) and a tag. I spent about $60 on all of them. When I got home, I discovered that Grandpa had accidentally let Lola out.

I was devastated, but I'd accompanied her outside before. I used to carry her outside during thunderstorms because she loved the drizzly wind. We all thought she'd find her way home.

I loved Lola so much. She and Bella were best friends. They did everything together. And Lola was my baby, just absolutely my little baby. Every time I went to see my grandparents, I would call for her, and she would run into the living room full speed. As she saw me, she would slow to a trot, stick her tail in the air, and wave it back and forth wildly until her nose hit my hand in a hard nuzzle.

But she never came home.

Bella grieved and grieved and grieved. She would lie in my lap all day long. She and Miku would cuddle and nurse, and I could swear by the look in Miku's eyes that Lola's absence left her heartbroken.

Re: Part I

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Oh, those poor sweet darlings. I'm happy you shared this, because I love hearing stories about cats who love each other, who mourn and grieve, who act more "human" than many humans.