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This is one of those times when I express true, honest hatred for humanity. The current political debate has only proven that most adult people have mentally and emotionally remained in the schoolyard playground even as their bodies have aged. Throwing bricks. Issuing death threats to families. Screaming in public. It's the verbal equivalent of pulling hair, shoving opponents into the dirt, and crying to teachers. It is disgusting. I can't even comprehend. And the current political debate? Health coverage in the United States. Holy fucking gods, you have got to be kidding me. These people are bullies. Classic bullies. I have seen toddlers who are more mature than some of these politicians, activists, and protesters. I think everyone involved in these attacks needs a Time Out. No television, no parties, no texting, no Twittering, no Facebooking. Just lock them in their rooms and let them sulk. This is insane. I feel ashamed. What the bloody fuck ever happened to being nice to people? We're all members of the same species. Gods help us all when extraterrestrial aliens really do arrive.
I'm sick of it. I don't care what your personal opinion is. I don't care if you think this bill is the height of all evil or the greatest thing since indoor plumbing. I don't care. Just keep it civil.

Rant over.

Adam will be home on Saturday. I think his irritation with being in Florida on this particular job is starting to seep out. He sounds snippy and tired in general, poor thing.
There is a party happening on Saturday, and he isn't sure he will even be able to get home in time. And at this point, I don't even know if I want to go. Close friends will be there, which is great, and I know even if I sit in a corner all night I will have someone to talk to. But the shy part of me keeps saying, "No matter what, no matter where, no matter why, no matter who, you will wind up anxious and tired and in pain and bored and possibly upset. You don't like parties. You're not actually social. You'll have fun for two hours and then you'll want to curl up on a couch. Plus, there will probably be very loud music and bright lights. Take a dose of passionflower and a Soma with you just in case."
And I have to wonder if that part is right. I hate wondering.

Emotional plummets suck. With or without the physical agony.

EDIT: I am going to the party.
EDIT AGAIN: Adam is home earlier than we'd thought. We will be going to the party together. Everyone I love will be there. It will be wonderful.

Date: 2010-03-26 02:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] poelaramont.livejournal.com
I share your frustration with the state of politics. Is it getting worse every year, or am I just imagining it? Seems like any chance of cooperation is impossible sometimes.

Anyway, I am studiously avoiding any contact with politics. Of course, that's my usual habit, but even more so now.

Earth give us strength to handle these people (yeah, had to give myself an excuse to use one of my new icons).

Date: 2010-03-26 03:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com
You are not imagining it. My head hurts more each year.
Earth give us strength indeed. She is so not as fragile as people think.

Date: 2010-03-26 04:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tokio.livejournal.com
At this point, I refuse to even THINK about the health care bill. I refuse to let the hatred get to me. There's this guy at work who cracks anti-Obama and anti-health care jokes to customers ALLL THE TIIIIIME, and I can't stand it.

I'm going to do exactly what I always have. I'm going to wait for everything to blow over before I do any research, read anything, or listen to anyone. When the tempers settle, then I'll do my research. I don't trust the media, and I don't trust anything I read about the health care plan right now.

Ugh.

How exciting it must have been when national media first caught on. The truth must have been everywhere. Scandals and corruption could no longer breeze by under the radar of America because journalism had integrity, and it was now in everyone's living room. That must have felt like the epitome of freedom, the epitome of truth, and the dawning of a new era. Now media coverage is destroying everything.

Date: 2010-03-26 04:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com
Extremely well-said. :-)

Date: 2010-03-26 06:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shaula82.livejournal.com
The second part of your entry reminds me of a concept I've studied recently - Eysenck's dimensions of personality. One of his theories was that introverts often shy away from situations which may provide a lot of stimulation (other people, loud noises, lights, etc - like a party) not because they don't like stimulation as such, but because they already have a lot of stimulation going on internally, in the brain. Whereas people who are outgoing seek excitement and stimulation because they are internally under-excited/under-stimulated (Eysenck would say that kids with ADHD act out because they are UNDERstimulated, which is why a very common treatment for ADHD is stimulant-based).

I kind of like this theory, I think it applies to me. I always have a lot going on in my head, plus I take a lot of joy and excitement from little things - and I'm not a big fan of big parties, etc.

Date: 2010-03-26 04:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com
I agree with this theory. In fact, I think I live it in my marriage: Adam has severe ADHD, which he channels through various activities that require intense mental work, like his job, and video games. He is perfectly happy just hanging out with me at home, but I always notice how alive he becomes at parties.

Date: 2010-03-29 05:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] natalief.livejournal.com
Interesting. I think that I should go and google that right now (or maybe once I get some sleep - up all night again) — it could apply to me in a BIG way!

Date: 2010-03-26 07:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] notadoor.livejournal.com
*hugs* Is there any way to go for two hours, and then leave?

Date: 2010-03-26 05:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com
I've decided to go for as long as my ride will be there. People have assured me that there are couches and beds that I can use when I get tired.

hey

Date: 2010-03-28 12:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] onelonegirl.livejournal.com
you are you and it is ok to not want to go to a party.... it is ok to have fun and be you as well..just a thought

Date: 2010-04-07 06:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] queenlyzard.livejournal.com
I am kinda glad to know that I'm not the only person who occasionally has that response to humanity.

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