Brain Fu Fighting

[brightlotusmoon]

Yeah, fuck a bunch of this.

Body and I are at war.
It's a tiny war, and it might not matter much, and Brain isn't sure which side to take (although Body and Brain are connected, so perhaps I can still blame Brain for most of this). I don't want to be friends with pain anymore.
I don't tell anyone, because it won't really do much beyond emotional and psychological security. I know I am loved, I know people wish me well, I know things will be better, things always get better.
My war, though. My battles. You know. Everything is in the moment.
Everyone fights in their own way. Nobody uses the same weapons in the same way, but everyone who fights understands each other.
If you are fighting and you are at war with your body/brain, I salute and support you.
*fistpump* This. Is. Sparta. Or not, and I am lost.
Something, anyway.

Eh.

Comments

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

See my most recent post, because yes - me, too.

Though I did put up the Halloween pics, so there is some happiness there. I can't get the singing video to embed, though it did on FB. People wanted me to post it, so - well, there it was.

*hugs* Life is really ridiculously hard right now. I get it.

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

I just read your post. I don't know what to say, except I love you.

I hope people like the photos - and that nobody says anything about my weight (yeah, still hung up on that).

I saw the video on FB. Your voice is so lovely.

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I love you, too. It's just been literally the worst week ever, and I don't even know how to explain it. But I think it's something that will pass.

I hope they like the photos, too. You should comment and say we look cute so that everyone agrees, haha. Then we get an ego boost, and hey, we DO look cute, right? We said we were going to stick by that thought. And no one will say anything about your weight. If they did, 1)they'd be full of shit, and 2)they'd be calling me heavy, too, since we're close to the same weight (I'm just a little taller than you, and well, my boobs are big, albeit hidden under that vest!) and no one has said that. And no one will.

And thanks. I'm glad you liked the video and think that about my voice. People are telling me to send that to Terrance (the GraveRobber) as well, since it's good and I've already talked to him once or twice. But I don't know. Pics, sure, but I don't know about the video. We'll see.

*hugs*

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Send pictures first, get a good dialog going, then send the video. :)

You know, I shall comment about our photos - so people know it's me and that we're awesome and hot!

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

I've spoken to him before, and he's seen me (though not in costume) and thought I was attractive, which was flattering. But I think I'll send the Halloween pics, see what reply I get, and then maybe send the vid. He's been very kind to me, so, I just may.

And good! People should know it's you and that we're awesome, dammit :)

[chorus-of-chaos.livejournal.com]

I always look at it as pick your battles. You may lose a couple, but that doesn't mean you will lose the war...and what doesn't kill us, just makes us stronger. Hang in there.

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Agreed. I feel like I've been in this war for years. I just need to remember which battles to pick.

[saffronrose.livejournal.com]

In pain, especially located in the head, everything IS in the now, blast it.
You and I at least want to have a Talk with the Designer, and get a better model.