Being Alice: Being A Ghost
Oct. 27th, 2012 08:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightlotusmoonHad a seizure.
Words fell off, like magnetic poetry on a refrigerator.
I remember standing at the libray, looking for the white mass market paper back of "Good Omens" and Adam found it.
And abruptly, the electric tsunami sensation washed over my body and brain, the indescribable feeling that flooded my entire spine and my head.
I said, repeatedly, "I need to sit down." I went to the couch.
It began. I panted and gasped and I saw Alicia behind my eyes. I fell into her lush Wonderland forest.
I felt my body begin to tremble and jerk and act like a creature electrocuted. It was barely two minutes. It was a roller coaster of torture and memory loss. I was barely inside myself.
Words fell off, like magnetic poetry on a refrigerator.
I remember standing at the libray, looking for the white mass market paper back of "Good Omens" and Adam found it.
And abruptly, the electric tsunami sensation washed over my body and brain, the indescribable feeling that flooded my entire spine and my head.
I said, repeatedly, "I need to sit down." I went to the couch.
It began. I panted and gasped and I saw Alicia behind my eyes. I fell into her lush Wonderland forest.
I felt my body begin to tremble and jerk and act like a creature electrocuted. It was barely two minutes. It was a roller coaster of torture and memory loss. I was barely inside myself.
Suddenly it was done. All I could do was gasp and cry.
Rick, who was over to hang out, saw me and asked what happened. I started sobbing.
Both Rick and Adam held my hands.
I cannot remember my words. I am crying.
The cats came to me and mewed and nudged me.
The cats all came to me at once. The cats always know.
The post ictal state is so crazy.
My head hurts so much. I can still feel Serena's psychic arms around me, her perfume of chocolate and coffee and fruits and flowers and amber and gentle sweet things. (http://theskinrevolution.com/_iiitawk.html Inspiration)
I am so so very tired. People surround me, and I am reassured. I will be fine. I will stop crying soon. Klonopin will help.Rick, who was over to hang out, saw me and asked what happened. I started sobbing.
Both Rick and Adam held my hands.
I cannot remember my words. I am crying.
The cats came to me and mewed and nudged me.
The cats all came to me at once. The cats always know.
The post ictal state is so crazy.
My head hurts so much. I can still feel Serena's psychic arms around me, her perfume of chocolate and coffee and fruits and flowers and amber and gentle sweet things. (http://theskinrevolution.com/_iiitawk.html Inspiration)
I feel like a ghost ripped apart. I feel like a ghost. I shine so brightly in the spirit realm.
I promised I will be all right. I promise I will be fine.
I promise.
