No, life. Don't even. Not now. Nope.

[brightlotusmoon]

Um. So.
Last night I had a small seizure - awake but barely conscious. And the baby migraine kept pulsating. I forced myself to sleep. I woke up at noon with the migraine even worse. And the thunder rolled.

The seizure itself was pitch black. It had me moving through a completely moon-less woods, holding the hands of two people - Alicia and Ananta - and stumbling over things, which transferred agony into my skull. I was shaking. They kept saying, Just a little more, just ahead, it's a rose light, you'll recognize it...
And there it was like a rosy mist with light inside. At the last minute, Ananta picked me up and carried me directly into the mist. That is all I remember.

I wound up staying in bed for an hour, because Calliope kept vocalizing, nuzzling and bunting me, and settling in to nurse on my shirt. I know she loves me deeply, but I must ask the cat behaviorists here what it means to be truly, actually loved by your cat, because Calliope will not go to bed until I go to bed, Calliope will follow me around the house, Calliope will check on me just to make sure I exist.

After I fell out of bed and took my medications (baclofen, tramadol, codeine, coffee, omega-3, MSM, L-Tyrosine, probiotics, inositol, shilajit, ashwagandha, noni, mangosteen, devil's claw, magnesium oil massaged into the severe stiff burning screaming lower back).

I am not fooled. I may be upright, typing. But I am having moments in which I need to breathe, collapse in the chair and massage my head. This will be a very interesting afternoon. Luckily, I have DVRed Archer, Bitten, Being Human, Lost Girl, etc. Just in case.
Is it sad that I want Ray and Lana to be my nursemaids?

Comments

[elialshadowpine]

Sounds like you have an Emotional Service Kitty. :)

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

You think so?! I hope so! I mean, she really sticks to me. Even when she isn't in the same room, I know she's close by, on my side of the bed, curled up on my wool jacket on the edge of the living room couch, etc...

[elialshadowpine]

Yup. The Evil Ex had a Service Kitty who would do the same thing, and actually did things like, when he was reaching for his med bag and couldn't reach, grabbed it with his claws and dragged it into his hand. I was in the room for this, turning the light up, and about to reach over to get the bag for him when Buddy did that. Calliope sounds like she does a lot of the same things. :)

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

I may have to "train" her to bring me things; that would be cool. She is certainly intelligent enough to try.