Freya's Day

Vanilla latte.

It's cold out. I need a longer coat. My favorite long coat is dead (the zipper broke and parts of the inside of the coat are ripped).

Last night, I watched the final episode of VH1's 100 Greatest Songs Of The 80's. The number one song was Bon Jovi's "Livin On A Prayer." This pleased me greatly, as I have always loved Bon Jovi. Twenty years later and he's still a god. The other two spots were Def Leppard's "Pour Some Sugar On Me" and Duran Duran's "Hungry Like The Wolf." Guns N Roses' "Sweet Child Of Mine" was also up there, number 8. (Mmm, Axlgasm). I was disappointed that there were no songs by Peter Murphy or Peter Gabriel.

Time to start.

Reishi mushroom

(Reishi is also called Lingzhi in China)

"Lingzhi has been found to strengthen the respiratory system and to have a healing effect on the lungs, and is particularly beneficial for individuals with asthma, cough and other respiratory complaints. At least one population study conducted in the 1970s confirms this claim. When more the 2,000 Chinese with chronic bronchitis took lingzhi syrup, 60 to 90% felt better within two weeks and reported an improved appetite, according to an article entitled, Medicinal Mushrooms, written by Christopher Hobbs, and published in Herbs for Health, Jan/Feb 97."

I've been taking Reishi capsules for a while (from SwansonVitamins.com), after my asthma started getting worse, and I noticed how well my lungs have improved. I may look up this article, or others like it. Reishi is supposed to boost immune function and help with heart and cholesterol health, and help prevent some cancers.
Also, the mushroom itself tastes yummy.

Seize me, definition of "seize"

"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."

Now, substitute "seizure" for "fear" and you have what I just went through.
More later.
Tired now.
Leaving work soon.

It made me scared. I was scared. It wanted to throw me against walls screaming, active, moving, not still, spasm, spastic. So I appeased it by visualizing, mental image, what it wanted, and it calmed down until the Storm passed. It's a Creature. It's an Entity, sometimes.

I won't cry. Not here. I won't make a sound.

But I am fine now. I am okay, I am all right. It passed, and it is done.

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