Ideologies

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And here I stand, still right in the center. And you can throw all the words you want at me, grab my arms and pull me this way and that, call me names, insult my intelligence, challenge my beliefs, force your opinion, yell at me, mock me, beg me to see it your way, tell me that what I believe is harmful, do everything you possibly can to show me why your way is best.
Watch me smile and nod.
I'm still in the center.
I press my finger to my lips and I smile.
And then I laugh.
And I hold up my finger and aim it at your mouth and whisper, "Hush. I get it. Now shut up for a minute and let me think."
You can't have me. Stop trying.


"Gemstones are the hardest things on earth, but they still break. They can take constant stress and pressure, but a sudden, sharp impact can shatter them into dust." -Chuck Palahniuk, "Lullaby"

Customized Harmony Elixir Spray: Awake

Swoon: 2. v. To be overwhelmed by ecstatic joy. 2. v. to enter a state of hysterical rapture or ecstasy 2. n. A state of ecstasy or rapture.

It's a blend of Pink Lotus, Bali Jasmine, Wild Rose, Neroli, Roman Chamomile, and Amber. Vicki made it just for me, after our realization two weeks ago that the essential oils in her Sun Protection Lotion were actually having real, true pain-relieving effects on me. The Psyche Body Lotion that I'd helped her create months ago has similar effects, so I figured it would be best to combine the essential oils from both lotions into one fragrance spray. And Vicki added in precious amber based on her intuition; amber is my favorite stone, as well.
When I smell this spray, there is an immediate electric, tranquilizing, sedative, yet energizing and refreshing warmth that floods me. My senses explode. Nociceptors quiet down and lie back. Muscles everywhere begin shuddering, loosening, relaxing, breathing, nearly sighing in relief. I want to burst into tears; something releases, something breaks free, something lets go. The clawed steel grip of fibromyalgia and cerebral palsy lets me go, and I stumble and then start dancing. Something else fills me and embraces me and it feels magical.
Honestly, I have no idea why I am so affected. All I know is that Vicki needs to keep this formula on hand for me in the future.
This is my signature scent. Forget BPAL or fancy commercial perfumes, this is it.