Pain, nothing new

Thank fucking gods for Mozilla's Esc key enabling me to freeze flashing and animated icons and images. Because holy fucking mother goddess, migraine from hell, plus sinus headache and pressure, plus violent dizziness, and the world is spinning counterclockwise. This week has been Very Not Good for me health-wise. But I fight on, I fight on.

Hot shower soon, and yoga stretching, and self-massage, and passion flower pills. Sensory processing disorder causing issues. Keyboard feels strange under my fingertips. Sounds are unreal, underwater.

Adam and I went to see Cliff and Michael in Virginia. Watched Coraline on Blu-Ray; we opted for the 2D version. I have the urge to read the book yet again.

Sleep soon.

A Warm September Thursday

I just learned that Pzifer, the drug company that makes Lyrica, and who pushed Lyrica as an effective fibromyalgia drug, has agreed to pay a massive fraud fine for illegal promotion of certain drugs. Lyrica was one of those drugs, promoted for fibromyalgia use. As it turns out, fibromyalgia in most patients was not -- not -- relieved enough by Lyrica to warrant official treatment with Lyrica. But the company illegally promoted Lyrica's use for fibromyalgia without full, further study.
So, yeah, um... everyone who has been insisting that I go on Lyrica can please stop insisting.
The Trileptal does actually seem to help with my pain flares, but it's not perfect. So, you know what, I'm gonna stay on it for the epilepsy and believe it calms the part of my brain that churns out pain reception.
http://community.livejournal.com/fibromyalgia/2420012.html

My migraine and sinus headache symptoms have been lessened. Acupressure, yoga, deep breathing, tryptophan, maracuja, turmeric, deep sleep. I am still shaky and I still feel as though I have been tripping, my skull hollowed and scooped. But things are better.

Adam has the next few days off and should return to the office Monday or Tuesday. He hasn't actually taken any vacation days this year.

I will be receiving unemployment benefits as soon as I report the last of my severance payments. I was approved for the highest weekly unemployment benefit payments for DC, so that will be very helpful. I feel less panicked and stressed about money now that I will have something coming in aside from Adam's income. And of course I am job hunting ferociously. Cliff's boyfriend, Michael, works for a company that I would love to work for, so I hope they at least look at my resume.

I should eat something.