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Oct. 4th, 2009 10:04 pmI feel... almost normal. Oh, my.
So.
I am still trying to locate that missing bottle of Gaia Facial Oil. I'd taken it out of my bedroom's mini-fridge to show a friend last week, and then I put it somewhere else and I cannot remember where it went.
I am experiencing breakouts again, along my jawline. Full coverage foundation has been my daily routine lately. Particularly Cory Cosmetics Liquid and Cream Foundations and Mac Studio Sculpt Foundation; concealers, too, like Cory Cosmetics and Smashbox and Physician's Formula. I feel like a monster when my face is naked. And yet, I wonder how people see me, if they even see the redness and the blemishes, if they even care. I look in the mirror and see furious red spots, but I take photographs and see plain skin. The mind plays tricks all the time.
I consistently feel slightly invisible, slightly worthless, and I know that is not at all true.
So.
I am still trying to locate that missing bottle of Gaia Facial Oil. I'd taken it out of my bedroom's mini-fridge to show a friend last week, and then I put it somewhere else and I cannot remember where it went.
I am experiencing breakouts again, along my jawline. Full coverage foundation has been my daily routine lately. Particularly Cory Cosmetics Liquid and Cream Foundations and Mac Studio Sculpt Foundation; concealers, too, like Cory Cosmetics and Smashbox and Physician's Formula. I feel like a monster when my face is naked. And yet, I wonder how people see me, if they even see the redness and the blemishes, if they even care. I look in the mirror and see furious red spots, but I take photographs and see plain skin. The mind plays tricks all the time.
I consistently feel slightly invisible, slightly worthless, and I know that is not at all true.
