Inchoate Mild Madness

1:10 PM
Well, that was insane. A migraine plus a violent body spasm during a simple partial seizure that led into a complex partial seizure that made two cats sit on me and lick me raw. Good thing I was lying in bed. Wow. I'm off to take a very hot shower now.

2:15 PM
You know, if my disabilities were people, they would probably be method actors. I certainly wanted to give that whole thing a standing ovation.

I am feeling somewhat human again, with the headache slightly abated. I also have that irritating surge of possibly hypomanic energy that happens with temporal lobe epilepsy.
And so I shall clean and vacuum the living room again, watch more Futurama (you knew I was going to do that anyway) and read more of "Emperor Mollusk Versus The Sinister Brain" - my favorite book to laugh wildly to, alongside "Divine Misfortune" which were both written by A. Lee Martinez.

A. Lee Martinez reminds me of a mad brain-meld between Terry Pratchett, Neil Gaiman, Douglas Adams, Terry Gilliam, Monty Python, John Scalzi, the writers of Futurama, and a crazed teenager in a skateboard park covering three miles of forest containing robot dinosaurs all built with the assistance and consultation of Nathan Fillion, Wil Wheaton, John De Lancie, Neil Patrick Harris, and Giorgio A. Tsoukalos (the guy with the wild hair from the Ancient Aliens show on History Channel, because he's not saying it was aliens, but it was aliens).

I'm having issues with actual food right now, so I made a smoothie with frozen acai pulp, whole milk, frozen berries, and coconut milk. That counts as food. Close enough.

Also, this is fucking hilarious.
http://knowyourmeme.com/memes/ancient-aliens

It's my own truth thing.

I don't know why I've been treating my online places as confessional kinds of things, but I have so many friends here who know me and understand me that it is hard to not talk about things.
I have been having issues with Body Dysmorphic Disorder again.
That is all.
I am working it out. Klonopin and therapy and exercise and pampering really can help my personal issues. It is difficult to talk about OCD problems sometimes, especially if it sounds like white whine, but I don't know what else to say about that.
I wish I could open up and talk and talk for hours, but right now I can't. My throat feels raw. Eating is not as much fun. I will see how my mind is tomorrow after I wake up and do my usual medications and meditations.
Also, sometimes when I leave the neighborhood, my brain opens up to all kinds of paranormal things, and I let some of them in. Sometimes they are very comforting. I know our home is well shielded, but there are so many times when I want to go out there, drop my shields, and shine like the weird paranormal beacon I apparently am, just so I can say hello to other dimensions.
I am glad I was raised to be skeptical. It helps me see everything from every angle and make my own decisions without strong external influences.

Symbolism in a kiss.

For me, my confidence always lifts so high with the little things.
The pomegranate red and the raspberry pink. Always.
http://beautyinfozone.files.wordpress.com/2011/10/it-cosmetics-pretty-woman-lipstick.jpg
http://beautyinfozone.files.wordpress.com/2011/10/it-cosmetics-love-story-lipstick.jpg
http://beautyinfozone.com/beauty/it-cosmetics-vitality-lip-flush-anti-aging-lip-stain-review/

The pomegranate and the raspberry are prominent and powerful in mythology and legend.
Both the pomegranate and the red raspberry contain ellagic acid and are able to filter UVA and UVB rays, making them excellent additions to sunscreen products. They both contain extremely high amounts of various nutrients, amino acids, and skin-healing nourishers. They both help guard against inflammation and some types of cancer. Their bright colors indicate their intense antioxidant abilities.

I am proud and happy to finally have found my favorite red and pink lipcolors, especially products that contain my favorite nourishing, hydrating, plumping, moisturizing, staining, and healing ingredients. I no longer need to search.
(Revlon Lip Butter Lipstick in Red Velvet and Cherry Tart come in second, while Too Faced Lip Creme Lipstick in Stiletto Red and I Want Candy come in third.)

In my current profile photo, I am wearing a blend of Love Story and Pretty Woman, affected by lighting and webcam angles. I will always feel strong with this lipstick, no matter what.