Being Alice: Everything nowhere

Crazy seizure was crazy. I was in body unable to... to brain. I knew and saw things happening. Couldn't act or react. Felt and saw myself. Rocked back and forth, gripping the arms of my chair and rubbing the leather. Lip rubbing, lip biting. The world was off. I was too hot. I closed my eyes. I saw Serena, my coping mechanism, she was holding me. The world behind my eyes was full of kaleidoscope light. I heard voices, like static. One voice stronger than the others said "Relax, relax, ascend, ascend." I let out a long cry and fell back against the chair and gasped heavily. My hands hurt. Everything hurts. I am typing very slowly and very carefully and correcting myself out of sheer strength of habit.
Three minutes. It felt forever. I feel overheated. Rose kitten has jumped onto my lap. Rose kitten has been on her back legs, front paws against my neck, cheeks nuzzling my face, mewls loud in my ears.
I have Whole Foods Nutrient Enhanced Water. Orange Mangosteen. I will drink that. I am thirsty. I can't stop biting my lips. I can't stop wanting to cry. My facial muscles keep twitching and spasming. A grotesque smile, a grim eye twitch. What am I saying? I wish I knew. I will look back on this with librarian eyes, I will look back on this and try to translate the quantum psychic metaphysics underneath.
I need lip balm. I have plenty of that. My head hurts and I feel too hot.
I will get over it. I always do. Bed soon anyway.

Shinies

Say what you will about the metaphysics of gemstones. They are quantum for me and they are soothing and they are fun to play with.