It begins

[brightlotusmoon]

We've been helping Charlotte prepare food and gifts for her family since this morning. Charlotte and I went to the mall so Charlotte could buy gifts for her young cousins. I got a gift for my husband to share with me. Or for me to use when he's not around. It's very pretty, with a blue marble color pattern. Charlotte and I got separated for about twenty minutes, and since she doesn't have a cell phone, she called me from a pay phone so we could meet at the food court. I still hate malls. However, I always love shopping with a girlfriend.
Tomorrow, Adam and I will be here at Charlotte and Billy's again, to hang out with their cousins and aunts and uncles for a while.
I just found out that Billy loves "A Christmas Story." You know, the classic movie that goes on and on and on in marathons from tonight until tomorrow night. But he'll only watch it once on Christmas Eve. Which is good, because that's about all anyone can take. So that's what we're watching. Pizza should be here soon. We ordered from Pizza Boli's: Extra large thin crust, half black olives ad green olives, half pepperoni and fresh tomatoes. And mozzarella sticks. I'm drinking a bottle of Bom Dia Acai Berry With Pomegranate Juice.
My attitude toward the $winter holiday$ has gotten so casual. I refuse to participate in the rampant commercialism, so I mostly stay at home, or at a friend's home, doing non-holiday things. When we buy stuff for each other, it's simple and sentimental and usually we let the person pick what they want.

I enjoy meditating on the spiritual aspects of the season and not the commercial aspects. I love being with friends and family more than I love buying gifts, honestly.

Comments

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Oh, I made a comment that caused someone to look at me funny and remark that it didn't sound like me; it sounded callous.

[ronin-lethe.livejournal.com]

it's the time of year. everyone is exhausted. things come out all wrong and messed up.

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's what I figured. But it also made me stop and think about when I blurt stuff out without really listening to myself. I've been working on that. Ever since that day that Adam had that insane nic fit and was saying horrible things that were both true and false, I've been actively hearing myself speak.

[ronin-lethe.livejournal.com]

it's hard. i try really hard to do it (for myself) and i try really hard to choose my words carefully (even when they are calculated to cut)--but especially when i am tired, or distracted, it is difficult to keep track.

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I understand very well.