The Return To Innocence

New And Improved Stuff I Did In 2007 (in no particular order):

1. Adopted my Luna, the best kitten ever. Receive love from her every single day. Result: Became a protective, productive kitty mommy and learned how to really care for a cat.
2.Switched to organic shampoo and deodorant. Result: Hair is awesome and amazing and no longer poofs or frizzes. Also, less body odor.
3. Grew my hair out to almost waist-length. Result: Just three more inches needed.
4. Started growing more of a spine. Result: Got more confident. Needs work.
5. Rekindled lost friendships. Result: Pleased and optimistic.
6. Learned to wear lilac eyeshadow and pink lipstick. Result: Made my eyes and face look brighter.
7. Took in a stray cat that had been rescued by a friend who couldn't keep her due to house cats' displeasure. Discovered that the stray didn't have a uterus, possibly a very well-healed scar or lack of uterus at birth. Spent lots of money, but worth it. Result: Need to help her become friends with house cats.
8. Switched to organic cat food without fillers. Result: Cats thriving, flourishing. Worth the expense.
9: Switched to clumping scoopable Fresh Step litter. Result: Best litter ever.
10. Finally accepted body, learned to love curviness. Realized that size four works better personally than size two despite being under five feet tall. Despite this, still unsure about full anorexia recovery. Occasionally plagued by serious doubt. Result: Needs improvement but getting better.
11. Cut back on red meat. Result: Still love meat, love vegetarian meals more. Possible flexitarian.
12. Got diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Discovered joys of Flexeril, yoga, and Pilates. Learned to manage pain and fatigue. Result: Still in pain but managing.
13. Became a Centrist with Libertarian leanings. Still a registered Democrat, but now more aware of personal political feelings. Refused vehemently to jump on the annoying "I hate Bush" bandwagon. Result: Feel more at peace politically.
14. Completely realized bisexuality. Enjoyed kissing women. Learned that husband also enjoys this. Became more sexually responsive and less shy. Result: More open to sexual experimentation and personal freedom in own marriage.
15. Made better friends with self. Result: I like me a lot.

Everything on this list shall continue in 2008. They are not so much resolutions as they are promises to keep it up.

2007 in less than an hour. A few of my friends have made an observation -- and I kind of agree -- that this isn't such an amazing event, not like other holidays. Thousands and thousands years ago a bunch of people decided that the year would begin on January first, and here we are. It could have well been April nineteenth, or December second. Why a celebration?
I know why a celebration. I know why it is a big deal (commercially, etc). But some people feel that it has no meaning other than a passage of time. No honoring a religious or spiritual figure or moment, no rituals representing millenia of magical tradition. Just millions and millions of people drinking champagne and kissing each other as the clock strikes midnight.

However, despite all this, it is still a celebration. It is our passing of time, our passing of a year as we see it, as many have seen it for years and years. That ball dropping, champagne sipped, that kiss given... it is all proof that we are still here, we exist for yet another year, that everything is still okay and will be okay, no matter what happens. That's what the New Year's Resolution is for.

Adam and I have decided to stay home, alone. No parties, no gatherings. Just the two of us, wife and husband, with a bottle of champagne that my boss gifted me. Curled up on the couch under a quilt, watching Times Square on television. I am filled with coffee and chocolate cupcakes (Adam made them).

I'm not making any resolutions. I know what I want, who I am, why I'm here. And I'll just continue, and hope it keeps getting better.