Trying

[brightlotusmoon]

I've accepted that I'll probably be in pain for the rest of my life, pain in some form of another. I'm not going to deny, ignore, or sugarcoat it. I won't put on a happy face. It's just what my life is and will be. People can tell me over and over, "Just think past it, just push through it, don't let it control you, don't let it become your life." That is fine. It is wonderful advice. Sometimes I don't feel like taking that advice, and that's fine, too.
I think that people with chronic pain disorders, chronic illnesses, neurological disorders, and brain illnesses need to understand that often it really is okay to cry and yell and scream and sob. Let it out. Get it out. But live life, too. We live with our pain, but we are not our pain and our pain is not us. Find ways to live. Try.
Sometimes I want to fall over and stay that way. I don't, because I don't know how to stay down. Not even when I'm forced. I try. I fail a lot. But I keep trying.
I don't know what else to say.

Comments

[soliloquy.livejournal.com]

Thank you for writing this. It's beautiful, and so true!

*Gentle hugs*

[ravenskye8.livejournal.com]

Most days you come out on top, but some days it does... and that's okay... Some days you just need to let it "win the battle", and some days you just need to take time and regroup...

The important thing is that you don't let it win - mentally... even if you have more days where it's winning physically - you can't let it take away who you are.

It becomes a part of you - but you don't become a part of it.

*hugs*

[queenlyzard.livejournal.com]

Yes. This.