Guides, Guardians, Spirits, Angels, Parts Of Me, Fictional Creations, All Of The Above...

[brightlotusmoon]

Especially for naamah_darling

Here is a post for questions about my Healthy Multiplicity, and the three (now potentially four) female people/entities who inhabit my brain and help me cope with all my various vast disabilities and illnesses.
This is also a post for others to discuss their own.

-Serena: The first known guide, who guides me through all and every pain, tension, emotion, and fear, who is my inner nurse.
-Alicia: The second known guide, who guides me through epilepsy and postictal states, who is my inner mage.
-Amara: The mysterious third guide with me from birth, only recently human, who guides me through overall brain damages, memory problems, cracks in the walls, neuronal crumbling.
-Amber: the previously silent, hidden fourth guide who acts as a preserver of my sanity, who seems to catch me when I fall so deeply I fear entrapment, who deflects darker energies and turns negative into positive.

Disclaimer: This is not a case of DID, which is a very, very specific disorder. My girls do not leave my mind to use my body and voice, although there have been very rare postictal states in which Serena has spoken through me when I was fully incapacitated; however, I was still myself, just unable to articulate until she lent her voice.
Healthy Multiplicity is extremely common in perfectly healthy people. It is often seen as a form of coping mechanism for many disabled people, who need to sometimes retreat into their creative minds to preserve themselves, to soothe their mental conditions, to know that they are able and capable and strong. Because sometimes, being reassured by loved ones falls hollow, and you know your own mind well enough, and your own mind knows you well enough.

Comments

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

So, in a way, yes - you created a character, and then, when you developed anxiety and depression, you applied that character (and a few others) to your life to help you cope, and they became guides to assist you through painful times (especially with your chronic pain now). I definitely know the distinction between deities and a connection to them and creative characters, so no worries there!

I think it's good - healthy - to know that these people are not real (as in, not a fractured part of your brain due to trauma, like DID), but to experience them as real when they need to be. YOU aren't them, but THEY are part of YOU. That's at least what it sounds like, which seems generally "normal" to me (as far as any of this, or us, can be normal. And I mean that as a compliment). ♥

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

You're definitely getting it quite well! Thank you!