The Return To Innocence

I wear a dark green Russian Amazonite ring on my spastic hemiplegic left hand to represent cerebral palsy. I wear a purple charoite ring on my right hand to represent fibromyalgia. I wear purple lepidolite bracelets, blue kyanite bracelet, labradorite bracelet, fluorite bracelet, purple charoite clear quartz pentacle pendant, to represent all of my awesome disabilities of which I am proud.
Because I can. Because colorful gems are cool.

*Obvious Disclaimer Is Obvious*
Just because I have purely personal anecdotal experience that crystals and stones have healing powers does not mean that crystals and stones will work for anyone, and it does not mean that other people would have the same experiences. I am fine with being mocked, belittled, and teased.

http://www.crystalhealingforwomen.com/amazonite.html
http://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/charoite
http://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/labradorite
http://www.zoultier.com/gem-historical-metaphysic-zoultier/lepidolite-historical-metaphysical-healing-properties
http://www.controverscial.com/Flourite.htm

"Lepidolite is a type of mica, it is shy and created of many layers of hexagonal plates. It occurs in sparkling masses around pink tourmaline crystals. Due to it's cleavage, as with most mica, Lepidolite is rarely faceted. It is rich in lithium, which is what lends it's beautiful color. Lepidolite cracks and breaks easily.
Placed on the body, Lepidolite is used to locate the site of the body's disease; vibrating gently to indicate the source.
Lepidolite will:
strengthen the immune system, restructures DNA, enhances the generation of negative ions;
relieve allergies, exhaustion, epilepsy and Alzheimer's;
detoxify for the skin and connective tissue;
assist in an excellent stone for menopause, especially as an elixir;
be laid directly on painful parts of the body, it helps with nerve pain, sciatica, neuralgia and joint problems;
be known as a powerful pain remover, it can also reduce the ill-effects of anesthetic and dependency on medications, alcohol, tobacco or food; and
also told to provide a wonderful shield against the effects of modern pollutions.
Lepidolite is:
a stone of calm, trust, and acceptance;
extremely useful in the reduction of depression as well as stress;
used to halt obsessive thoughts, and relieves despondency, as well as overcomes insomnia; and
supportive in releasing one from addictions and complains of all kinds, including anorexia;
known to clear out all of the redundant messages and voices form the past that hold us back from happiness and/or success;
an aid in attracting supportive friends and colleagues, as well as bring opportunities to succeed; and
will help any and all living in unavoidably stressful experiences (such as city dwellers) to maintain a calm, and serene center.
Due to its calming properties and its often vividly purple color, Lepidolite can be used in rituals or carried to promote spirituality. It is a mineral carried to attract good luck, it also drives off negativity, although it's protective properties are not extremely strong. To promote a restful nights sleep free of nightmares, place Lepidolite near the headboard of the bed.
Called a 'stone of transformation" Lepidolite releases and reorganises old psychological and behavioral patterns, thus inducing change.
Stay Healthy!"

"Fluorite is highly protective and is a beneficial crystal to help guard one from picking up negativity or negative energies from those nearby. It cleanses and stabilizes the aura and is extremely effective against computer and electromagnetic stress. Spiritually, Fluorite grounds and integrates spiritual energies. It heightens intuitive powers and makes one more aware of higher spiritual realities. Psychologically, Fluorite dissolves fixed patterns of behavior and opens the door to the subconscious, bringing suppressed feelings to the surface for resolution. Dissolving fixed ideas, it helps one to see the bigger picture. This crystal dissolves illusions and reveals the truth. It can be very helpful when one needs to act impartially and objectively. Fluorite increases self-confidence, improves physical and mental coordination and counteracts mental disorders. This crystal is an excellent learning aid, increasing concentration. It helps one to absorb new information and promotes quick thinking.
Emotionally, Fluorite is stabilizing and helps one to understand the effect of the mind and emotions on the body. In relationships, it teaches the importance of balance. In healing, Fluorite is a powerful healing tool, drawing off negative energies and stress of all kinds. It cleanses, purifies and dispels anything within the body that is not in perfect order. Fluorite helps with infections and benefits teeth, cells and bones. It repairs DNA damage and is powerful against viruses. Fluorite is beneficial for colds, the flu and sinusitis. This stone alleviates arthritis, rheumatism and spinal injuries. Stroked across the body towards the heart, it provides pain relief. Fluorite rekindles sexual libido.
Fluorite is one of the healing crystals that everyone MUST have. I literally use it every day in a protective grid at my computer desk, to guard against excess electromagnetic radiation, to keep my work flow and focus in harmony and to heighten my intuitive gifts. It guards against negativity and unwanted outside influences, psychic manipulation (think the media) and stress of all types. One simply cannot overuse Fluorite or even have too much of it! On the physical level, it is a strong healer for almost everything, but especially bones, joints and teeth; surgery, injuries like bruises and cuts; colds, flu, viruses; pain relief; heals the skin including shingles; as well as disorders in the stomach and intestines. Position the Fluorite over the affected area - you can even tape it or bandage it to an area that has a cast or stitches where it can work 24/7. Mentally Fluorite is a strong intellectual and learning crystal, It is extremely organizing for the mind and can be used in cases of ADD and ADHD where the brain is "mis-wired." It is a good crystal to use in order to coordinate the body and mind together. Emotionally it is stabilzing and helps balance mind and emotions. Fluorite heightens mental abilities, assisting in rapid organization and processing of information and can bring mental clarity and stability to an otherwise chaotic situation.
Due to its powerful ability to absorb negative energies, Fluorite should be cleared often."

Some people have been asking me why I wear so many specific bracelets in varied order. It isn't because the stones are beautiful, though they are. It is for neuromuscular and sensory processing balance. See, since my left arm, affected by spastic ataxic cerebral palsy, often feels ghost-like, I wear multiple gemstone stretch bracelets to give weight to that arm, so I can feel that weight, look at my arm, and think, Oooh, pretty stones, and oh, right, I should use this arm. Raw amber, charoite, lepidolite, kyanite, tourmaline.
On my right wrist, the balancing act is more of a counterweight. The raw amber, polished amber, fluorite, and lepidolite help me concentrate on my total physicality. I am inside my mind too much. My body needs me just as much, even more.
It is the same reason I wear gemstone rings: charoite, lepidolite, seraphinite, kyanite - the gemstones that work best for me, alongside amber resin. On my left hand are my green gold wedding ring and my inherited yellow gold band. On my right hand is my heirloom engagement ring. I need balance, once again. So I wear a ring on my left index finger and two rings on my right middle finger. Balance is vital for me with my particular set of neurological damages. It helps that all these stones have metaphysical properties that work perfectly for me.









I do wish my left hand would not tremble so badly, even when propped against a surface. But that is what I live with and I respect it while I seek to improve and strengthen it.

Adam is working a job all week in the Silver Spring Hilton. This morning we woke up together at 5:30 and left at 6:00 to carpool, so he could be at work by 7:00. At the hotel, I found us breakfast, then went into a restroom to apply makeup etcetera. Walked the the three blocks to the Silver Spring metro, rode the train to Gallery Place, got to the office just after 8:00, spent half an hour relaxing before starting work. Got a nice workout later moving books around.

The new ring is really lovely. On Sunday, when I went to get Saturday's mail, I found a silver ring lying on the ground, with an oval shaped amber stone. It fits my right middle finger snugly. The band itself had a sort of oddly shaped wave pattern, encircling the stone. It's hard to describe. I did an online search to see if I could find a match, and found this to be the closest match. The stone in my ring is more of a fiery dark orange Baltic amber with a fragmented pattern, with what looks like bubbles inside. The band, however, is exactly the same. Since I've been wearing it, I've been feeling very peaceful with a steady flow of subtle energy. Amber is my favorite stone, and with its metaphysical properties, I can usually tune into myself more easily than with other stones, except for amethyst and diamond. Personally I feel that Baltic amber is one of the best stones for channeling bioenergy, aka subtle energy, aka chi. It's also good for circulation and healing of the skin. It's great for muscle aches and pains too. I've found that pressing a piece of amber against various body parts during times of joint and muscle pain, for a few minutes, will actually soothe the inflammation. (Disclaimer: I have no idea if this will work on you, but it can't hurt to try.)

Penelope is back in her "I don't like any of you and I want to hide forever" phase. Yesterday she had wedged herself into a corner way under our roommate's bed. That's really the last place she can hide without being immediately found. I may have to ask Jason to block kitty access under his bed. Penelope is happy to have human affection once we keep her on our bed, but she's still wary of Jupiter and Luna. The vet suggests that it's because she's still fertile. We had to change the spay appointment because of Adam's work schedule, so it's now the day after Christmas. By then, I think Penelope will have adjusted enough to be fine, and after she's fixed she should be a bit more sociable. Crossing my fingers. She really is a sweetheart, she needs to know she's safe. And she needs to know that she has feline friends who really like her.

If you've never had an astral body, or applied magic, etc etc... you may not get this (and if you think it's bullshit I won't fault you either).
My wings actually got cold for a few minutes. Very intensely bizarre. Invisible psychic appendages aren't supposed to feel temperatures, are they? I don't think it's physical cold, like cold hands, maybe more like a spiritual cold. They felt temporarily iced up or lacking circulation. My back is tingling.
Adam is in Albany, NY right now. He'll be home on Thursday. I may call him and find out what happened to the dragon statue. I need to meditate with it for a bit. Jinniyah's asleep in the back of my mind. I don't want to wake her; I might try to find one of the others. Dragon guardians can be temperamental when woken up from naps.
I performed a quick check on my aura and general energy, and I'm getting cooler colors than normal. I'm normally gold, violet, blue and green. The shades this time are... pale. Chilled? I don't have the best words. I've never experienced this before, so I'm at a loss.
Next time I see Charlotte or Lena, I'll ask them to take a look. Maybe it'll have gone away by then.